Give me your 10 seconds please :)

Final Exams TOMORROW and THURSDAY biidhnillah.

Viva Exam- Wednesday

Long Case 1 hour- Thursday.

Finales at that final lap before that 5 years awaiting scroll. 

Please.Keep.MyComrades.And little me.InYour.VerySuperPrecious.Duaas.

Jazakum Allah khayran katheera. 

For Allah Holds the hearts of the examiners & patients.

And He azza wa jalla is The Most Responsible for every milisecond decreed and inch of situation He s.w.t Put us onto.

Thus why be afraid, have tawakkul in Him s.w.t. you’re doing this not for you. It’s for Him azza wa jalla. For the deen, for the Ummah.


Allah Knows Best.

The Night as it Envelopes


As the night envelopes

She slowly signalled her car to the right, slowly watching the kids running around. She smiled, thinking to herself. The days when she used to play in the park just like them. It was as if there was no midnights existing. At last, she reached the house where at front was a worrying old women smiling at her.

“Assalamualaykum nyai.” She opened her shoes, slowly entering the wooden hut. The old grandmother smiled her nodding replying her salam slowly. She sat on the small wooden table-like chair with the rubber top and rested her body on the walls of the hut. The feeling of unresembled happiness. Secure. Something she would not get easily when she was in her medical years. She wanted to close her eyes and suddenly someone held her shoulders. The warmth of an elderly. The warmth of wisdom. She missed that so much. From a distant, she heard a cat purred and the cool breeze brushing on her face.

“How is work going on?” The voice, she missed it so much. She smiled and nodded assuringly. “Alhamdulillah I’m still a Muslim nyai.” She pulled the cup with the warm milk tea served by her grandfather who came out with the vibrant smell of attar.  He sat down in front of them, wanting to listen attentively to her. “Anyone causing you any headaches?” He laughed and pulled a newspaper.

She shook her head and smiled. In her head, patients swore at her with vulgar words, children of patients scolding her, and senior doctors pecking on her for her unrevised knowledge. Then looking at these two people she loved, everything was erased. Alhamdulillah.

The Rising Sun HD Wallpaper

The Brightness of the Day

Inded, Allah s.w.t is As Sami’u Al ‘Alim. He Knows in every hearts and minds, and He Azza wa Jalla Created the day (nahar) for a reason and does not dispose only nights in our lives. It shows us the difference of timezones where in the bright  daylight all the creatures of the earth work hard to find food, to build shelter (except nocturnals) and us human beings vibrantly looking out for the best to strive in our works, studies and excel in this dunya. An opposite of the quiet and calm nights where it has been created for human beings as a quiet moment for us to regain energy, recharge and to worship Him s.w.t in the best of times. SubhanAllah. For every single thing Allah s.w.t Has Created there are gazillion hikmahs (wisdom) and just by thinking of it can bring us super awe about the Greatness of Allah azza wa jalla. SubhanAllah. In despairs of darkness of nights, Allah azza wa jalla Blessed us with the joyous vibrant of daylight. And in the hectic drowning of the days, Allah azza wa jalla Blessed us with the soothing calmness of the nights. And for every single second of day and night, Allah azza wa jalla Blessed us with a chance to repent, to fulfill the best in becoming a better person every second towards meeting Him s.w.t.



Allah, the Exalted, says: “Indeed, in the creation of the heavens and the earth and the alternation of the night and day are signs for those of understanding–who remember Allah while standing, sitting and [lying] on their sides”

[Al Quran, Surah Ali Imran 190-191] 

“The Lord (swt) says, ‘Whoever is busied with the Qur’an from remembrances (dhikr) and from supplicating to Me, then surely I will give him better than that which I give those who ask Me [and do not busy themselves with the Qur’an].’”


Alhamdulillah in the midst of bashing dushing headthumping moments, someone asked me to watch KungFu Panda! SuhanAllah- made my day lol.

Alhamdulillah ya Allah for such warming family here, they remind me a lot of my little ones back at home and my parents , a LOT subhanAllah. May Allah s.w.t Bless this family with the best of levels in Jannatul Firdaus and May Allah Make their faces radiant as radiant as the brightest moons and may He azza wa jalla Gather us in the day where there is no worriness and fear ameen! 🙂

In Your name my Lord, I lie down and in Your name I rise, so if You take my soul then have mercy upon it, and if You return my soul then protect it in the way You (protect) Your righteous servants.

[Bukhari & Muslim]

Allah Please Forgive me ,

and You Know Best.

To them with love

Assalamualaykum wr wbt,

Hope this post find you alls in the super-est eeman and health. Alhamdulillah for every single atom of Oxygen Allah azza wa jalla is letting into my lungs and blood! 🙂

SubhanAllah, time pass so fast, now it’ 4 months to go, bismillah.

As how much I miss the hometown, I’m starting to miss the people surround me now whom I’m saying sayonara soon. Dramatic? Could be, but it’s just something only Allah azza wa jalla knows the feeling. Nevertheless, that is how dunya is created, of non permanence, and these wonderful wonderland and wonderpeople created by Him azza wa jalla is only for one main purpose, to worship him, every single twitch of muscle for Him, every single second as a confirmed preparation in meeting Him.


“So by mercy from Allah , [O Muhammad], you were lenient with them. And if you had been rude [in speech] and harsh in heart, they would have disbanded from about you. So pardon them and ask forgiveness for them and consult them in the matter. And when you have decided, then rely upon Allah . Indeed, Allah loves those who rely [upon Him].’

[Al Quran, Surah Ali Imran” 159] 

To Them With Love

Was engulfed in yesterdays’s event with the youth, let me feeling a bit ‘youthful’ and these are some of the golden treasure moments I will treasure in my life insh’Allah. One of my sahabats came to me saying, “My mom was teaching me how to deal with the kids! I was worried, this is my first time dealing with them!’ I laughed listening to that statement. Then paused, thinking. SubhanAllah, dealing with the youth, indeed it’s a skill itself, and me who is pretty ignorant even with my closest sahabats, hrmm, could be a challenge for me as well.


Except for those who have believed and done righteous deeds and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience.

[Al Quran, Surah Al ‘Asr : 3]

One thing which was a dush for me as well was one thing learnt from one of the best leadership courses.

To be Loved by others.

*GULP* Sometimes, you tend to be in this lala-land where you think every single thing you do is good, being drowned with multiple tasks laptops, ipads you name it, and you get disengaged with the real outside world dealing with human beings. I learnt that being a great leader is not being so super busy with multiple events, tasks, being a great fantastic all-you-know doctor or great cook but it is how you have time to spend with others. How much of ears and hands you have to spend with people which surrounds you, and looking upon the best communicator with the best of manners- the Prophet s.a.w you will be totally amazed subhanAllah how he s.a.w managed to do all that in the top of his s.a.w amazing charisma as the battle leaders and the best of husbands and fathers.


There are some times we tend to narrow our scope of minds- love is something to do with roses, chocolates and ribbons. Subhanallah, love is greater than that. It is action which comes from a clean heart- always striving to be a better person and free itself from the shackles of sins. Always looking at others with no made up judgements and thinking that you have a lot to learn from the person. Conversing with the sisters like talking to future Hannah, the grandmother of Prophet Isa a.s., to future Fatimah r.a. the best of daughters, relaying to them in the best languages, learning from them about yourself. And always wanting the best of them, and them to be much much more brighter than you for the sake of the Ummah and the sake of Allah’s Love and Mercy utmost importantly.

When talking to brothers especially to the younger ones, it’s as though you are speaking to future Umar al Khattab r.a., the finest of leaders and the just Ameerul Mu’minin, conversing in a way of uttermost respect, learning from them about them and you and always wanting them to be the best amongst of the ummah.

When correcting, it’s not because of that line, you are wrong and I am right.

But with the weavings of care & love & respect for the sake of Allah azza wa jalla, be it young or old. These young lads are much more alert than you, they watch every single glance you do, every single step you take and every word you speak. They know how sincere you are just by the smile you throw out in times of distress. And there is no point of acting out something, for the creator of your brains Know exactly the intention of the hearts and every reason you are doing it.


Advice them, in a way you love & respect them, you want them to be a better person and you are sincerely have that unimaginable eagerness of meeting him or her in Jannatul firdaus and if you slip she helps you up and if she slips, it’s your task to do that! Indeed as human beings Allah s.w.t Has created us imperfect, but the super ones are those who aim for perfection. Everyone slips, but the best of us are those who quickly get back up when slipped! Shaytaan does not do simple things like slipping you directly, but he will ensure that once you slip, you will never get up again! SubhanAllah. How big the loss would it be if we are amongst those who give up easily on our own mistakes when every second is a ni’mah given by Allah s.w.t for us to turn back into Him!

his mercy

The Missing Ingredient: Gentleness & Compassionate

It’s a good time to recheck, review and revamp, if the way we communicate with human beings are in effective or not. Sometimes, we talk as if we know what we are doing right, thus always ask for feedbacks, and always observe the other party’s reaction and acceptance when we converse or communicate for the person. Yes, indeed it’s a bit sophisticated, but trust me, how you talk to others, it’s a rewarding lesson to be learnt! (inshAllah) especially for those full time duaats insh’Allah 🙂

And of gentleness & compassion- appropriately of course! Sisters should not be overly gentle and compassion conversing communicating to brothers and vice versa, thus that’s why I numerously repeat the word with utmost respect and know that indeed Allah is Watching you!

The beloved Prophet s.a.w advised us:

 “Make matters easy, and do not make them difficult; and give glad tidings and do not turn people away,”


and on note of gentleness,

“Gentleness is not in something except that it adorns it, and it is not stripped from something except that it ruins it,”


It’ll be a great laughter (my terminology) when my closest sahabats read this because they know that me myself is so insensitive- it’s unreal.

Therefore this is always a reminder for me me me and me utmostly and for those who are concern.

Ukhti, forgive me for all my mistakes insh’Allah -.-“

This tiny amatullah is striving her best to be beneficial to others biidhnillah,

and in accordance when our beloved Prophet ﷺ advised:

“Convey on my behalf, even if (just) one verse,”


ps Please make duaa for a tutorial Im helping out tomorrow inshAllah! 🙂 Jzkk

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: “Indeed a servant will speak a word pleasing to Allah that he thinks to be insignificant, but because of it Allah raises him by many degrees. And indeed a servant will speak a word displeasing to Allah that he thinks to be insignificant, but because of it, He will consign him to the Hellfire.”

[ Sahîh al-Bukhârî ]

Allah Knows Best 🙂

Al Muhyi, Al Mumit.


And [remember, O Muhammad], when those who disbelieved plotted against you to restrain you or kill you or evict you [from Makkah]. But they plan, and Allah plans. And Allah is the best of planners.

[Al Quran, Surah Al Anfal:30]

The Giver of Life

Slowly he repeated. Wa yam ku ru na wa yam kurullah. WAllahu khayrum makirin. He closed the mushaf, and looked at the skies. Al Muhyi, the Giver of Life.

He looked through the charts and in summary, it was a 30 year old lady from Foxbury, first child expecting 17 weeks already. She was the most cheerful ever patient he met the whole day. That brings a slight satisfaction. Alhamdulillah. With a chaperone, the nurse smiled and joyfully took her blood pressure. Mus’ab slowly greeted replying her cheerful presence as well, explaining to her that an ultrasound will be done.

The nurse asked, “Are you excited? It’s your first baby!” The woman smiled the widest smiles. She nodded excitedly and prepared to be scanned.

With the ultrasound on the abdomen, Mus’ab looked at the screen. He noticed the water filled bladder, then slowly to the baby. His heart skipped a beat. SubhanAllah. Al Muhyi- the Giver of Life to this baby until last week, it was okay. This week, the heart was still beating but… The sac which was supposed to cover and protect the baby like a balloon, looks different. He scanned again, the mother looked excited at the baby’s thumping heart. The amniotic fluid which was supposed to protect the baby- it’s slowly leaking.

He switched the ultrasound off. In his mind 1001 thoughts fled in. Oligohydramnios. 17 weeks. Very poor prognosis. First baby. Very happy mom. Baby is not gong to survive. How. How. How.


He looked at the woman, still smiling widely, now slowly turning into a more serious mode.

Al Mumit-The Taker of Life

He closed his eyes thinking. In the midst of he wanting to give up this career. He knows there is a wisdom (hikmah) why Allah Made it easy for him to pass through. 7 years of drowning into books yet Allah Made it easy for him to understand, to score well in his exams. 5 years of being one of the active brothers in his Youth groups, yet Allah Make it easy for him to gather the best of sahabats and knowledge, mostly of the afterlife and also this world. SubhanAllah. If Allah Made it Easy for him to also motivate himself for the future amanah (responsibility) ahead, thus he should be able to pull through, being the best of medical professionals in his life, the best of fathers, the best of brothers, the best of companions. Best of warriors, best of sportsmen. Slowly, as the bus passed through the hectic city, he made duaa to Allah. Grant him and his comrades the best of patience, the best of qawiy. His dreams of meeting the Prophet s.a.w in Jannatul Firdaws, to meet the best of companions and the best of the best- to be able to book that ticket of Jannatul Firdaus class, he knew and he must act in a JannatulFirdaus class as well.

For every lost, Allah Is Teaching him to dear them when they are still there. For every tear, Allah Is Teaching him that this world is so temporary and eternal bliss can only happen to those victorious in the afterlife. And for every single second that Allah s.w.t Has Blessed him with- health, Islam and Eeman – is to teach him to be grateful and indeed to treasure and reap the best in this world for the Moment of Eternal Truth, the day where the believers and those in falah (success) are able to see Allah’s face and they will never ever regret.

SubhanAllah. Al Muhyi, Al Mumit, Indeed you know what is unseen to us and what is hidden from us. We know that this life is a mystery in a way of what You have perfectly Planned. And the strenous-t of tests are those of the superb-est acts, to test the highest levels of patience.

Do Forgive us for things we might not know, and do light up our chests to learn more, love more and live your name more every single milisecond.

See You Soon. 

One of the best comrades. Knew his weaknesses, secrets, ambitions, goals in and out. Leaving him soon in less than a month. Sadness, truly that is what happens when the closest of hearts do part. Him being emotional, la’ at all, since he knows he is the most expressionless human being on earth! This comrade stayed late nights since the past 2 years he knew him, and together they would lie on piers, climb mountains discussing about what are their aims, their goals when they see each other in the highest levels of Paradise. And both of them knew, it was no joke. He would correct him straight away when he goes astray and likewise too. He had the best of advices where tears abundantly flow withing a 30 minutes of talking. He walks, talks, reminds, subhanAllah everything reminded him of Allah.

Ya Allah, May Allah Make it easy for this hero insh’Allah, and deep in Mus’ab’s heart, he knows clearly that they will have their children and future generation entwined, loving each other for the sake of Allah, without them meeting. And May Allah Ease them in meeting back in Jannatul Firdaus. Ameen ya rabbal ‘Alamin.

My Plans. 

The year has zapped so fast, without even realizing it the year has been a year older.Wrinkles added to his beloved parents’ faces and winter coldness slowly starts to reach into bones. Some asked him what are his plans in 6 months time when he leaves this territory for good. He smiled. SubhanAllah, indeed, most of the plans he had before this, mostly had to be rejuvenated with the love of the Creator of Heavens and Earth. He smiled again, heads, reanalyzing, restrategizing. Indeed, the best of the Muslims are those who worked professionally in the most organized manner. But all he could think was Al Anfal, ayah 30. He has plans, others has plans, but utmost importantly- Allah azza wa jalla has Plans, and His Plans are the best. All he is striving to be for every single second is, being the best of the best- which is being beneficial to others, insh’Allah! And so many things to do, yet so little time subhanAllah.

Always- the prayers are the charger of the hearts.

Allah Knows Best.





“O My servants, no fear will there be concerning you this Day, nor will you grieve,” (Qur’an, 43:68)


“Indeed, the righteous will be in a secure place [al-maqam al-ameen],” (Qur’an, 44:51)

Jibreel (Gabriel) `alayhi salaam (peace be upon him) once came to the Prophet ﷺ (peace be upon him) and told him, “O Allah’s Apostle! This is Khadija coming to you with meat soup. When she reaches you, greet her on behalf of her Lord and on my behalf, and give her the glad tidings of a palace in Paradise wherein there will be neither any noise nor any fatigue,”


Have you been in a phase where you think no ones actually in sync with you, the whole world is backfiring against you and you just want to be alone. SubhanAllah. Praying the heart far away from the whispers of Shaytan. And deep in the heart longing to meet its Creator azza wa jalla.

Seriously seriously feels like going there.  To that place where abundant happiness, joy and endless satisfaction lies in.


I remember when I first met you
I felt that God answered my call
There was that one place I always thought about
And I just wanted to be there with you
The place that no eye has ever seen
The place that no heart has ever perceived
I had a great feeling inside of me
That one day I’ll be there with you

And now that we’re here feeling so good
About all the things that we went through
Knowing that God is pleased with us too
It’s not a dream, this is so true
Feeling the peace all around
Seeing things we could never imagine
Hearing the sound of rivers flow
And we know we’ll be here forever
The feeling is indescribable
Knowing that this is our reward

Do you remember the hard times we went through?
And those days we used to argue
But there was not one thing that could bring us down
‘Cause we always had in our minds
The place that no eye has ever seen
The place that no heart has ever perceived
The place we’ve been promised to live in forever
And best of all, it’s just me and you

And now that we’re here feeling so good
About all the things that we went through
Knowing that God is pleased with us too
It’s not a dream, this is so true
Feeling the peace all around
Seeing things we could never imagine
Hearing the sound of rivers flow
And we know we’ll be here forever
The feeling is indescribable
Knowing that this is our reward

I remember us praying at night
And just dreaming about this together
I’m so blessed to have you in my life
And now we can enjoy these blessings forever
Paradise is where we are now
Paradise, a dream come true
Paradise, O what a feeling!
Paradise, thank You Allah!

May we be a part of the believers who will say,



“Praise to Allah who has removed from us [all] sorrow. Indeed, our Lord is Forgiving and Appreciative – He who has settled us in the home of duration out of His bounty. There touches us not in it any fatigue, and there touches us not in it weariness [of mind].”

(Qur’an 35:34-35)

And amongst those whose faces are radiant,



“[Some] faces, that Day, will be bright – Laughing, rejoicing at good news.”

(Qur’an 80:38-39)

insh’Allah Ameen, ameen ameen.

[Ya Allah Grant us Qawiy]